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Mermaid Birthday

Shout out to Mermaid. My little one is one! My camera batter is dead, but when Grandma sends her shots, I'll upload.
Happy Birthday, M. Thanks for an amazing year of growth for all of us.

So Thankful

I'm completely overwhelmed, but I'm still alive. My bathrooms haven't been cleaned in 2 months and my shelves are dusty enough to make even me cringe, and I get new medical bills pretty much every week. I'm baffled by the medicaid application I'm trying to fill out, way behind in getting my home-made Christmas stuff put together, and usually end up letting my daughter watch about 4 hours of TV a day. I was below my pre-pregnancy weight two weeks after birth, but now I'm gaining again. I'm trying to figure out how long I can get by wearing just one pair of pants and a nursing bra that has to be pinned to fit properly. Even so, whenever anyone asks how I'm doing I can't help but smile and say "Wonderful!" I'm so happy to have LL for my son. I'm so happy to have Her Nibs for my daughter. And marrying Turtar was definitely the best thing I've ever done in my life.

LL came off oxygen a week ago and finally met Mermaid face to face at Thanksgiving (pictures to follow :D). He has hypothyroidism, but there's a pill for that. Other than needing his blood drawn periodically to check his TSH levels, it doesn't seem like a very big deal. We're still dealing with eating issues (thickening milk to prevent aspiration, supporting his cheeks, trying to get him to eat enough...), constipation, and hemorrhoids, but today he passed his hearing exam!!! Finally. He has normal hearing. Hurrah!

Eventually I'll find my center, but for now I flip between 'brink of disaster' and total elation. Usually the elation wins out, so that's okay by me.